~ My Thoughts~

Here is another page for my BOM(Book of Me).

Carson's 1st birthday is just around the corner. I thought it would be fitting to create a page on how I felt when I was pregnant with him.

So here it is:

Journaling reads:

This photo was taken a couple days after I found out I was expecting. I was pooling with emotions and an uneasy feeling overcame me. When most people would have been jumping around excited and wanting to shout it out to the world, I just wanted to hide under the nearest rock. I was alone in how I felt; Brodie was very excited and didn’t understand how I was feeling. When I was sad he would perceive that as I didn’t want to be pregnant.

In reality I was AFRAID, how would I measure up as a mother? Would I meet my own expectations I put upon myself? I worried about the obvious; how is the labour going to go? Or will I really be capable of looking after a tiny fragile baby? Then I thought about the future, when he grows up am I going to be able to instill in him the importance of being a responsible individual. I wished for him to RESPECT and LOVE himself as well as others, to take PRIDE in everything around him. What about VALUES, Could I to teach him the value of a dollar, as cliché as that sounded it was on my list.

It took me nine months to accept the fact that I was going give life to someone who’s going to be born whole and free – and realized it’s up to US as a FAMILY

to shape him into the man he will be,

not just me –

I’M NOT ALONE.
Like it has been said ; it takes a village to raise a child.